headache...

i had a money headache earlier today

had a chat to our financial broker about our qld investment property
and we talked about moving a lot of money around...

unfortunately the money was not going INTO my account and i had a big heart attack
now that im preggers... im acutely aware how poor i will be when the bubs arrives...

now that i have about 6 months left of money rolling in... its really FREAKING scary...

what i thought i had put aside for emergency money for when the baby arrives.. has now been reduced by a lot and im shit scared :(

i have never felt so underprepared in my whole entire life...and now i reaally have to count all my pennies .... reduce all non essential spending and stick to a BUDGET !!!!!! [grrr such a dirty word]

im not used to this, im soooo used to getting wotever i want when i want it... ive never ever really had to budget. i guess im quite lucky that way....

think i might have to go back to full time work sooner then i expected :[ or hopefully win the lotto

lets hope i win lotto

xxoo